【 虫虫小妹 My lil Sweet corner 】

Wednesday 11 May 2011

Complicated feelings

Started my college study on monday 9/5......

I hope i m making the right, right, rightest choice of studying A level...
I dont want any regrets of not doing STPM...!

In fact, blarrrr.....i know wad the hell is in my mind...
I SIMPLY NOT DARE! NOT DARE to pick up the challenge! LOSER me....
because the people are saying...whoah! STPM arr! the hardest exam in the world la wey!

...<_<

and i trusted that, irrevocably, its setted firmly in my mind.
I sometimes even hope that i do not belong to this world.. why i wasn't borned in Pandora? or wherever the planet that exists to be fun n relaxing places.
But no one could give me an answer. how stupid is my question?

that was when i realised that im actually evading while others r struggling to invade, i decided to clear all of my doubts, by asking question oftenly n refering the comments on forum.

n long time after doing this, i found tad its really not necessary to listen to the others because everyone has different views in terms of $$, conveniency, reputations, bla bla n so on. the most important is YOU yourself experience it n u have your own set of answer, so that next time when your juniors ask u the same question, u have to... uh huh. u knw.

nah, me, the physically passive but mentally active person do not know if my choice is right, but i think if im capable enough to make it, turn it into the rightest choice, thats it. no worries! look front!

n i think so far i have collected aloooooot of views n opinions from different kind of people (which i personally think tad its useful n d main point, they r mostly true) plus i have my own opinion too as i walked along this difficulties.

i hope i can help. i know whats the feeling of being in a complicated situation where u HAVE TO make decisions immediately n there is no one to help u, guide u n give u advices. u wil probably go mad with yourself. faat mang zang is unavoidable. If u have cried in the latenight on your bed trying to get the best solutions but actually failed to do so, wondering in despair (or not so serious case, just felt blurr or lost in direction), or u have fed up thinking or making decisions n just perhaps the god takes u to wherever, do wadever....(i went through all this, hahas xD) please dont hesitate! do not hesitate to seek advises from your dad or mummie, or your friend (ask the experienced one not the blurr as u one orelse u will get into more x_x =o= situation) or even a stranger on facebook, ASK! ask them as lot as u can. or u can ask me either. (geee xD) most of the people who went thru this are willing to help.

GOOD LUCK =)

Monday 6 September 2010

泡面的生活

啊~ 太开心了! 每天都不用一直在烦学校的事情。
这两个礼拜就好好的做褒带皇帝好了。
韩版恶作剧好期待噢!有金贤重大佬
和一个不知是谁来演的湘琴。
那本淘气小亲亲有华语翻译的吗?
看到江直树对于课业有十全能力
easy地在每一次的考试中拿满分,在百名榜第一永远都是他
又可以过目不lupa
真好
真羡慕
可惜IQ200 de people = P(A)/P(S)= 1/10000000
and the "1"/1000000 not me, hmmm, sobss...

Saturday 31 July 2010

COME BACK MY CONFIDS!

I wonder where is my zeal on studying nowadays?
Achieving a good result is my pride, and too the motivation fot me to pursue a better result, next time.

"when is yout best?"

the awesome answer:

"the next one."

this is what i am holding on, insisting along the years of hardworks.
My biggest motivation, besides my parents, is myself.

I used to persuade myself, sometimes been forced to convince myself, about "studies lead to succeed". which it sounds convincing, but actually's only a pretext for teachers to make their eye-watching tiring duties to be alleviated, unless one doesnt want to succeed at all.

Back to the issue, i am adhering to "getting into a good class, even i do not study, people will still at least not eyeing me irreverantly" kind of thinking, it sounds irreproachable, although i am totally resolute at my own pathway, the pathway to succeed with gaining homages.

Homages? Is that we study so hard and suffering from fucking tremendous stress,in other hand to gain more respects? at our future, of course.

anyway, i figured out myself as the most brainless person. Because i am telling myself that i want your respects. so badly. No, No....? I am not.

See, I dont even know what i'm thinking. Sometimes when i hv been trapped in a well, a well of questions, which the respondent is me, and the people who thrash out problems with me is myself. I do not ansrer the questions that "me" asked loudly, usually murmuring, and sometimes i answer it deep inside, hoping that god doesnot hear it. And it is blameless for me to do it, oftenly. So once, I started to allow the third participant to listen n answer my questions.

She is I. I always torpedoed me. The new rose hopes will always be despaired. After doing all this, I will demurely mock myself. How stupid......please be rational.
And that moment i could feel that confidence was not with me anymote. I had put me n myself in lethargic situation.

This is the main point. i need my confidence back. but it had been away from me 2 years ago, when funs had replaced it absolutely!

Friday 30 July 2010

征求一手车

在征求着1.6cc Auto车,


Toyota Vios,

Toyota Innova,

Toyota Estima,

Naza Ria,

Waja (silver n grey, not green pls),

Persona.



Or any car that you 1 2 sell it.


2001-2006, (full loan, if any)
有的话请联络 JC 0192429938