Complicated feelings

Started my college study on monday 9/5......

I hope i m making the right, right, rightest choice of studying A level...
I dont want any regrets of not doing STPM...!

In fact, blarrrr.....i know wad the hell is in my mind...
I SIMPLY NOT DARE! NOT DARE to pick up the challenge! LOSER me....
because the people are saying...whoah! STPM arr! the hardest exam in the world la wey!

...<_<

and i trusted that, irrevocably, its setted firmly in my mind.
I sometimes even hope that i do not belong to this world.. why i wasn't borned in Pandora? or wherever the planet that exists to be fun n relaxing places.
But no one could give me an answer. how stupid is my question?

that was when i realised that im actually evading while others r struggling to invade, i decided to clear all of my doubts, by asking question oftenly n refering the comments on forum.

n long time after doing this, i found tad its really not necessary to listen to the others because everyone has different views in terms of $$, conveniency, reputations, bla bla n so on. the most important is YOU yourself experience it n u have your own set of answer, so that next time when your juniors ask u the same question, u have to... uh huh. u knw.

nah, me, the physically passive but mentally active person do not know if my choice is right, but i think if im capable enough to make it, turn it into the rightest choice, thats it. no worries! look front!

n i think so far i have collected aloooooot of views n opinions from different kind of people (which i personally think tad its useful n d main point, they r mostly true) plus i have my own opinion too as i walked along this difficulties.

i hope i can help. i know whats the feeling of being in a complicated situation where u HAVE TO make decisions immediately n there is no one to help u, guide u n give u advices. u wil probably go mad with yourself. faat mang zang is unavoidable. If u have cried in the latenight on your bed trying to get the best solutions but actually failed to do so, wondering in despair (or not so serious case, just felt blurr or lost in direction), or u have fed up thinking or making decisions n just perhaps the god takes u to wherever, do wadever....(i went through all this, hahas xD) please dont hesitate! do not hesitate to seek advises from your dad or mummie, or your friend (ask the experienced one not the blurr as u one orelse u will get into more x_x =o= situation) or even a stranger on facebook, ASK! ask them as lot as u can. or u can ask me either. (geee xD) most of the people who went thru this are willing to help.

GOOD LUCK =)